GUILTY.

You ever done something so unconsciously that you didn't even realize how harsh it would turn out? I did. I hurt my cousin. It sucks that I've got these "monster" tendencies that come from within me. I'm sorry. She knows who she is.

Below is a post from her:

i am having a hard time trying to figure out why there are so many people
around me changing. i know that change is good. also that it happens no matter if we want it to or not. the thing is that the people that are changing are people that i care about and i am related to. seems like the person that i once knew yesterday is not the same person that i am starting to notice. very recently i have been having a few issues with a cousin of mine. i do not know if it is just me being hard headed or infact if shes changing. this bothers me alot!!! first when i think about it i get sad. cuz we fight and argue through texts. then i get angry cuz i can not relate to her. i remember all to well what it was like to be 18. to have to live at home, work, go to school,the pressure of graduation. i hated my high school years. i knew alot of people-but didnt make alot of lasting freinds. sadley enough the people that i thought i could trust just fucked me over and washed thier hands of me in my 20's. i wish that i knew just what to say to make all her problems go away. i hope that in the near furture all of the stresses in her life vanish. and our relationship goes back to how it was. i miss it!!! i miss her.....


I hope she knows that I don't mean to hurt her. She means a lot to me and I look up to her. I don't look up to her just because she's my lovely cousin, but because she means a lot to me. She's a wonderful person inside and out & she's also tough. Stronger than I think I could ever be.