SOMETHING UNEXPECTED.

I've never felt this type of hurt ever. How did I let myself get too caught up in the moment. I've never felt so low and unimportant. Its like this was the band aid that covered the hurt from before, and the band aid got torn off too soon. So now its even worse. Its sore and painful and almost unbearable. I don't know how I let it get this far, this fast....but it happened. Now I feel humiliated because I kept it all the way real and I thought I was getting real back. I wasn't. And this hurts.


I wrote that about a week ago.


Today I had to come to the realization that I shouldn't feel that way. It really doesn't matter the situation at all, you're happiness should never be stripped from you. You should never LET a situation even commence to overpowering you of your own emotions. Only one person should be in charge of how they feel. People may influence your emotions and situations may make you feel some type of way, but nothing should ever make you so unhappy that you feel lost and unhopeful. never hold on to false hopes, never look to a light that's not there, never let someone or something control you. It's hard when you're vulnerable, but you have to love yourself and treat yourself with the true definition of respect because nobody else will...